It has been one jam-packed month that has consisted of the following: study time, gym, more study time, work, friends, family, church, youth functions, sleep, more study time, more gym time, etc...you get the gist.
I'm two weeks out from taking this oh so exciting GRE, and with 20 hours of study time already under my belt, I'm starting to feel a little more prepared. If you would've told me two years ago that I would be dedicating every spare moment (let alone well over 20 hours) to studying for a grad school entrance exam, I would've laughed in your face. Hard. Oh the irony of how God works.
God knows that I'm a words of affirmation person. (Let's just be honest, I think I have all five love languages all the time.) Of course He knows, He is the one who created me. In creating me this way, God has also seen fit to surround me with lots of encouraging friends, especially as I've decided to continue my journey into education. I can't even begin to count the amount of times I've heard statements like, "You're going to rock this test," or "You're extremely smart. Of course you're going to blow this thing out of the water." Every time I hear this, I can almost picture myself having a Rocky Balboa moment. I can now enter the GRE boxing ring of life and happily give it a nice little KO. (I sure hope I got that boxing analogy right. If not, hopefully you get the point.)
However, even though the words surrounding me (and oh so wonderful gifts like Starbucks gift cards) are phenomenal encouragements, the greatest motivational tool I have in all this is the good 'ol Bible. Ever since I was a little kid, Philippians 4:13 has been something I could recite like my ABCs: "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." What a simple yet incredibly profound statement, especially in this particular season of life.
In leading worship for the kids, God has prompted me on several occasions to remind them that our great God can help overcome any obstacle, mountain, or hurdle. It's something I've often had to remind myself of and something I hope sticks with them as they journey on through middle school, high school, college, and the adult world. My current mountain isn't life-threatening or dangerous, but it definitely has the element of uncertainty.
My current mountain is this test. I hate tests. With every fiber of my ever-loving being. I haven't thought about quadratic formulas or Pythagorean theorems for well over six years. However, I know that God has called me to this. He wants me in grad school. He wants me to pursue a Master's of Arts in Human Services Counseling, and I know He will give me the strength I need to pass this particular test with all the flying colors I will need.
So I encourage you. Your mountain may look really scary. Your hurdle may seem insurmountable. But God can and will give you the strength you need to overcome. Tests come in many different forms and are often much more daunting than this one currently facing me. However, I fully believe that God continually gives us the tools and encouragement we need to pass whatever tests come our way with flying colors.
God's always for you. Who can be against?
Thanks for letting me ramble.
Until after the GRE,
Em
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
The Tides are Turning
We are only six short days away from my favorite holiday....CHRISTMAS!! My Spotify playlist has been running through some of my favorite artists every day while I sit at work. Let me just tell you, sorting mail becomes so much more enjoyable whilst listening to Christmas songs.
The transition into this season is always one of my favorites. There are lights to see, Christmas cookies to decorate and eat, gingerbread houses to make, presents to wrap, and most importantly, this is a time to celebrate the birth of the Savior of the world.
I've mentioned before that I've felt God stirring another transition in my own heart since June. I just haven't been quite sure what this transition may look like until recently. Last week, I had the wonderful opportunity to catch up with a fantastic friend who is a grad student at Regent University in Virginia. As we caught up on the past several months of life, she again (this is not the first time she has made such a suggestion) mentioned that I should consider getting a Master's in some sort of counseling field. Up until a year ago, I had always been completely ANTI grad school. That's another thing I can add to the list of things I am now doing that I told God I would NEVER do. Man, what a sense of humor that guy has. Anyway, as she talked about the possibility, I got really excited about the idea.
You see, I've been telling God for the last several months that when He wanted me to transition, He was going to have a put a big 'ol neon flashing sign in front of my face. I had no idea what He wanted me to do next, and I was just holding to the dream He has given me to travel and speak to women all over everywhere. However, throughout the past several months, I have felt God tell me that whatever I do next will further prepare me for the ministry He has called me to.
What better way to become more equipped than heading back to school.
I have always had a heart for counseling. In being a pastor, I kind of feel like it comes with the territory. However, I in no way feel prepared to "counsel" someone if they came to me with an extremely serious life situation. So, the more I've thought and prayed about it, getting a Master's feels like my neon flashing sign. In light of the recent tragedy in Connecticut, I've realized how desperate our hurting world is for the love of Jesus. Coupling my love of people with a background in counseling feels like the right move to better aid the lost and hurting world around me. I want nothing more than to be as effective as possible, and I really feel like this next step will open up a whole new world to me.
So, I'm doing it. I'm going back to school. I've requested information, and I am beginning the ever tedious search for which program seems like the best fit for what I ultimately want to do (whether online or at an actual campus). I've got a pretty good idea of the one that sounds absolutely fantastic, but I know that may change as the process continues.
It's amazing to me how God works, and I'm really excited for this next step. Who knew? I'm actually excited to go back to school.
Thanks for letting me ramble!
I'll keep you posted on the process as it goes along!
Love you guys.
In Him,
Em
The transition into this season is always one of my favorites. There are lights to see, Christmas cookies to decorate and eat, gingerbread houses to make, presents to wrap, and most importantly, this is a time to celebrate the birth of the Savior of the world.
I've mentioned before that I've felt God stirring another transition in my own heart since June. I just haven't been quite sure what this transition may look like until recently. Last week, I had the wonderful opportunity to catch up with a fantastic friend who is a grad student at Regent University in Virginia. As we caught up on the past several months of life, she again (this is not the first time she has made such a suggestion) mentioned that I should consider getting a Master's in some sort of counseling field. Up until a year ago, I had always been completely ANTI grad school. That's another thing I can add to the list of things I am now doing that I told God I would NEVER do. Man, what a sense of humor that guy has. Anyway, as she talked about the possibility, I got really excited about the idea.
You see, I've been telling God for the last several months that when He wanted me to transition, He was going to have a put a big 'ol neon flashing sign in front of my face. I had no idea what He wanted me to do next, and I was just holding to the dream He has given me to travel and speak to women all over everywhere. However, throughout the past several months, I have felt God tell me that whatever I do next will further prepare me for the ministry He has called me to.
What better way to become more equipped than heading back to school.
I have always had a heart for counseling. In being a pastor, I kind of feel like it comes with the territory. However, I in no way feel prepared to "counsel" someone if they came to me with an extremely serious life situation. So, the more I've thought and prayed about it, getting a Master's feels like my neon flashing sign. In light of the recent tragedy in Connecticut, I've realized how desperate our hurting world is for the love of Jesus. Coupling my love of people with a background in counseling feels like the right move to better aid the lost and hurting world around me. I want nothing more than to be as effective as possible, and I really feel like this next step will open up a whole new world to me.
So, I'm doing it. I'm going back to school. I've requested information, and I am beginning the ever tedious search for which program seems like the best fit for what I ultimately want to do (whether online or at an actual campus). I've got a pretty good idea of the one that sounds absolutely fantastic, but I know that may change as the process continues.
It's amazing to me how God works, and I'm really excited for this next step. Who knew? I'm actually excited to go back to school.
Thanks for letting me ramble!
I'll keep you posted on the process as it goes along!
Love you guys.
In Him,
Em
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Falling into Change
Now that I am no longer a student, fall has become one of my favorite times of year. I love watching the leaves change colors, and the humidity drops significantly making Emily's curly mop of hair very happy. With the start of fall, I also know that my beloved Christmas is fast-approaching. I could literally listen to Christmas music all year, but I fear for my life seeing as my family doesn't really enjoy my obsession with the yule-tide carols. However, I am getting ahead of myself. It's still only October.
The different seasons have always triggered a sense of change. As it gets colder, we don scarves, boots, and hats to keep our little bodies nice and warm. For those of you who know me well, my favorite apparel in the fall and winter months is a sweatshirt with some oh so trendy sweat pants. I know, I know, I'm a trend-setter extraordinaire. For many people, change can be rather intimidating and scary. Being the crazy dare-devil that I am, change has always excited me.
As I look around my immediate world, I see change all around me. In the past several months, I've had friends move, friends get married, friends get pregnant, have babies, etc. You get the picture. Change is everywhere. The one change that I get asked about the most is when I'm going to change my last name. I, of course, just smile and grin assuring the concerned parties that when the Lord is ready to bring Mr. Right into my life, I am ready. However, until that time, my 23-year-old (and not 203) self will enjoy the wonderful season known as being single. The one change I have been dying for more than anything is a change of scenery.
I have been back in Wichita for well over a year, and let me just tell you, it has been a wonderful time. I have made so many new friends and gotten reacquainted with so many old. I know that God placed me here for a very specific time and purpose. Looking back, I've loved every minute of it. However, the fast-paced girl within me is ready for a change.
As I've pondered what change really means, I am brought back to the book I am reading right now for my Bible study: Lioness Arising. Being the future-oriented person I am, I have always struggled with living in my present (I have discussed this before in previous postings), because I am ready for the exciting changes that I know will come in the next several years. However, God has given me a new challenge for the here and now: be the change you wish to be in the world around you and in what you see. In Lioness Arising, Lisa Bevere talks about being on the hunt for the lost and hurting in our immediate and darkened world. The more I've allowed God to open my eyes, the more I see how much hurt I am surrounded by living in mid-western Wichita, Kansas. In a much more eloquent way than I am about to write, Lisa talks about looking not only to heaven but looking around at our immediate world. She talks about ways we can help restore what has been demolished while looking ahead to the glorious hope we are promised in living Christian lives. In doing this, we also need to instill the truth of who God is and what He says.
And it hits me. Emily, change is waiting all around you. It's time for you take part.
I get the privilege (yes, privilege) of working with teenagers on a very regular basis. In working with them, God has given me a platform to begin doing work in women's ministries. Do I really see these girls who walk in the door of our youth room? Do I really try to be actively involved in the change God wants to bring in their lives? Are my eyes opened to the present calling God has given me?
In the past few months, I can happily say the answer to all those questions is a resounding yes. I am excited to be a part of the change God wishes to see happen in my here and now.
So, what is my point?
No matter what exciting things are in the future, be the change that the world around you so desperately needs right now. Open your eyes to the opportunities God is placing and has placed all around you. Be the change you wish to be in the world around you and in what you see.
I've also successfully completed all seven seasons of Boy Meets World in the past two-and-a-half weeks, so in the words of my beloved Mr. Feeny, "Do good."
Thanks for letting me ramble.
Love you guys.
In Him,
Em
The different seasons have always triggered a sense of change. As it gets colder, we don scarves, boots, and hats to keep our little bodies nice and warm. For those of you who know me well, my favorite apparel in the fall and winter months is a sweatshirt with some oh so trendy sweat pants. I know, I know, I'm a trend-setter extraordinaire. For many people, change can be rather intimidating and scary. Being the crazy dare-devil that I am, change has always excited me.
As I look around my immediate world, I see change all around me. In the past several months, I've had friends move, friends get married, friends get pregnant, have babies, etc. You get the picture. Change is everywhere. The one change that I get asked about the most is when I'm going to change my last name. I, of course, just smile and grin assuring the concerned parties that when the Lord is ready to bring Mr. Right into my life, I am ready. However, until that time, my 23-year-old (and not 203) self will enjoy the wonderful season known as being single. The one change I have been dying for more than anything is a change of scenery.
I have been back in Wichita for well over a year, and let me just tell you, it has been a wonderful time. I have made so many new friends and gotten reacquainted with so many old. I know that God placed me here for a very specific time and purpose. Looking back, I've loved every minute of it. However, the fast-paced girl within me is ready for a change.
As I've pondered what change really means, I am brought back to the book I am reading right now for my Bible study: Lioness Arising. Being the future-oriented person I am, I have always struggled with living in my present (I have discussed this before in previous postings), because I am ready for the exciting changes that I know will come in the next several years. However, God has given me a new challenge for the here and now: be the change you wish to be in the world around you and in what you see. In Lioness Arising, Lisa Bevere talks about being on the hunt for the lost and hurting in our immediate and darkened world. The more I've allowed God to open my eyes, the more I see how much hurt I am surrounded by living in mid-western Wichita, Kansas. In a much more eloquent way than I am about to write, Lisa talks about looking not only to heaven but looking around at our immediate world. She talks about ways we can help restore what has been demolished while looking ahead to the glorious hope we are promised in living Christian lives. In doing this, we also need to instill the truth of who God is and what He says.
And it hits me. Emily, change is waiting all around you. It's time for you take part.
I get the privilege (yes, privilege) of working with teenagers on a very regular basis. In working with them, God has given me a platform to begin doing work in women's ministries. Do I really see these girls who walk in the door of our youth room? Do I really try to be actively involved in the change God wants to bring in their lives? Are my eyes opened to the present calling God has given me?
In the past few months, I can happily say the answer to all those questions is a resounding yes. I am excited to be a part of the change God wishes to see happen in my here and now.
So, what is my point?
No matter what exciting things are in the future, be the change that the world around you so desperately needs right now. Open your eyes to the opportunities God is placing and has placed all around you. Be the change you wish to be in the world around you and in what you see.
I've also successfully completed all seven seasons of Boy Meets World in the past two-and-a-half weeks, so in the words of my beloved Mr. Feeny, "Do good."
Thanks for letting me ramble.
Love you guys.
In Him,
Em
Monday, September 10, 2012
A Time of Reflection
I'm just warning you, as you read this, I will probably jump here, there, and everywhere. But I promise, as always, to hope to have a point.
It's been a while since the last time I've blogged, and God has been doing some crazy cool things in my life.
However, I've been too busy whining to see otherwise. Yes, whining. I will admit when I've been throwing myself a little pity party.
As most of you know, for the past few years I've been feeling a specific call and leading into women's ministry. I feel called to travel and proclaim the truth that so many women cannot navigate past their own bondage to see. And for the past several years, I've just anxiously waited.
There's problem number one - being anxious. In my mind, anxiousness correlates with worrying. I do believe a specific verse talking about not worrying about tomorrow yet over and over again, I find myself being anxious. Out of anxiousness, anger can creep up if not cautious. I've been at my job for a year, and God has been stirring my heart more and more to this passion He's given me.
So here I am. Waiting. And whining.
"God, you've given me this desire and dream, and everywhere I turn there seems to be NOTHING available."
"My dear child, why can't you just trust me? Why can't you be happy in your present? Why can't you do what I've called you to do right now?"
Well, God just has an excellent way of asking us the greatest of questions in which my responses go something like this: "Hm, well, good point. Don't know. Thanks for the spiritual smack."
In speaking with a good friend the other night, I was reminded that there are opportunities to minister to women all over this wonderful (yes, I called Wichita wonderful. Don't die of a heart attack.) city I live in. It's called volunteering. We have shelters, we have homes, we have so many opportunities that I've been too busy ignoring because I couldn't figure out why I didn't feel like God was using all of my skill sets. Hello. I haven't really looked all that hard. So I've been challenged to look into some of these places that need people to volunteer their time and heart to minister.
For some time, I've felt that whatever God called me to do next would prepare me for what I feel is my God-given desire. But why can't I start now? Why can't I go out and speak truth and life into women who live not 15 minutes away? Oh wait, there's no reason I can't.
It's funny how so many times we spend so much time looking at ourselves that we forget to look up.
"But God, why can't I do that? God, what about me?"
I'm feeling more and more challenged to just remember that it is ALL about Him.
In my Bible study, we are reading a book called Lioness Arising by Lisa Bevere. If you are a lady and have not read this book, GET ON IT! I feel more and more passionate because it's opening my eyes to see beyond my small scope. What can I do in my city, in my state, in my world?
It's really easy for me to get so stuck on the big picture that I forget that God has something for me right now.
And again, I was reminded of God's sovereignty in my life. This weekend, I had the great opportunity to go with our youth group to World's of Fun in Kansas City. I got to walk around with some of the greatest girls ever. Well, during this lovely trip, I was able to ride my favorite ride of all time. The Mamba. It brings me never-ending joy (until I get sick, of course). Well, after getting off this ride, I discovered my bag containing my iPhone, debit card, keys, etc. had been stolen. Gone. Snatched. Not to be seen. However, instead of panicking, I just felt peace and the urgency to pray. So I did. And I prayed. One of our other youth sponsor guys graciously walked around with me desperately looking for this horribly colored purple and teal bag (don't judge, it's all I had at home). As I was walking, I felt compelled to look at this diner right by the Mamba. As I turned my head to the edge of the diner, there was my bag. On the ground. Opened. Stuffed with a bunch of leaves. Everything still there. Whoever took my bag had opened my wallet and pulled out my debit card leaving it on top. I did later discover they blessed themselves with a $3 slice of pizza, but hey, I will HAPPILY take that outcome. All of my stuff was still there which is so miraculous. And in that moment I was reminded of one very simple truth; God is still sovereign. So why do I feel the need to complain? Why do I find myself stuck in sometimes very negative attitudes? As most of you know, I'm so happy it drives people nuts on occasion. So this nagging and negativity just DRAINS the ever-loving life out of me. But it is because satan (I still refuse to capitalize his name) wants me to lose sight of my purpose and my perspective - bringing glory and honor to the name of Jesus Christ in whatever and however He asks me to do so.
I know this has been one jumbled train of thought, but it is a thought I felt impressed upon to share. We serve a big God. Let's just not lose sight of what a big God does in the seemingly menial and small.
Thanks for letting me ramble.
Love you guys.
In Him,
Em
It's been a while since the last time I've blogged, and God has been doing some crazy cool things in my life.
However, I've been too busy whining to see otherwise. Yes, whining. I will admit when I've been throwing myself a little pity party.
As most of you know, for the past few years I've been feeling a specific call and leading into women's ministry. I feel called to travel and proclaim the truth that so many women cannot navigate past their own bondage to see. And for the past several years, I've just anxiously waited.
There's problem number one - being anxious. In my mind, anxiousness correlates with worrying. I do believe a specific verse talking about not worrying about tomorrow yet over and over again, I find myself being anxious. Out of anxiousness, anger can creep up if not cautious. I've been at my job for a year, and God has been stirring my heart more and more to this passion He's given me.
So here I am. Waiting. And whining.
"God, you've given me this desire and dream, and everywhere I turn there seems to be NOTHING available."
"My dear child, why can't you just trust me? Why can't you be happy in your present? Why can't you do what I've called you to do right now?"
Well, God just has an excellent way of asking us the greatest of questions in which my responses go something like this: "Hm, well, good point. Don't know. Thanks for the spiritual smack."
In speaking with a good friend the other night, I was reminded that there are opportunities to minister to women all over this wonderful (yes, I called Wichita wonderful. Don't die of a heart attack.) city I live in. It's called volunteering. We have shelters, we have homes, we have so many opportunities that I've been too busy ignoring because I couldn't figure out why I didn't feel like God was using all of my skill sets. Hello. I haven't really looked all that hard. So I've been challenged to look into some of these places that need people to volunteer their time and heart to minister.
For some time, I've felt that whatever God called me to do next would prepare me for what I feel is my God-given desire. But why can't I start now? Why can't I go out and speak truth and life into women who live not 15 minutes away? Oh wait, there's no reason I can't.
It's funny how so many times we spend so much time looking at ourselves that we forget to look up.
"But God, why can't I do that? God, what about me?"
I'm feeling more and more challenged to just remember that it is ALL about Him.
In my Bible study, we are reading a book called Lioness Arising by Lisa Bevere. If you are a lady and have not read this book, GET ON IT! I feel more and more passionate because it's opening my eyes to see beyond my small scope. What can I do in my city, in my state, in my world?
It's really easy for me to get so stuck on the big picture that I forget that God has something for me right now.
And again, I was reminded of God's sovereignty in my life. This weekend, I had the great opportunity to go with our youth group to World's of Fun in Kansas City. I got to walk around with some of the greatest girls ever. Well, during this lovely trip, I was able to ride my favorite ride of all time. The Mamba. It brings me never-ending joy (until I get sick, of course). Well, after getting off this ride, I discovered my bag containing my iPhone, debit card, keys, etc. had been stolen. Gone. Snatched. Not to be seen. However, instead of panicking, I just felt peace and the urgency to pray. So I did. And I prayed. One of our other youth sponsor guys graciously walked around with me desperately looking for this horribly colored purple and teal bag (don't judge, it's all I had at home). As I was walking, I felt compelled to look at this diner right by the Mamba. As I turned my head to the edge of the diner, there was my bag. On the ground. Opened. Stuffed with a bunch of leaves. Everything still there. Whoever took my bag had opened my wallet and pulled out my debit card leaving it on top. I did later discover they blessed themselves with a $3 slice of pizza, but hey, I will HAPPILY take that outcome. All of my stuff was still there which is so miraculous. And in that moment I was reminded of one very simple truth; God is still sovereign. So why do I feel the need to complain? Why do I find myself stuck in sometimes very negative attitudes? As most of you know, I'm so happy it drives people nuts on occasion. So this nagging and negativity just DRAINS the ever-loving life out of me. But it is because satan (I still refuse to capitalize his name) wants me to lose sight of my purpose and my perspective - bringing glory and honor to the name of Jesus Christ in whatever and however He asks me to do so.
I know this has been one jumbled train of thought, but it is a thought I felt impressed upon to share. We serve a big God. Let's just not lose sight of what a big God does in the seemingly menial and small.
Thanks for letting me ramble.
Love you guys.
In Him,
Em
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Memorial Day Bliss
This past weekend could not have been any more perfect. I was once again surrounded by some of my favorite people in the entire world. I got to hug the necks of those I haven't seen in over a year. I even made a new friend.
I am blessed.
As I arrived in Baltimore on Thursday evening, my anticipation was mounting. As I walked out of my gate, the wonderfully familiar face of Laurisha Cotton greeted me. I wanted nothing more than to squeal with joy, but I figured the airport personnel may not like that too much. After a year, I finally got to hug the neck of one of my best friends.
The next day, I got to see a friend I've only spent the span of a week with. Steph is a dear friend I made while in Romania last year, and it is so wonderful to see how God has completely orchestrated every bit of our friendship. I loved being able to hang out with her in a place where everyone speaks English. :)
In the following days, I was reunited with many more of the people who made Evangel what it was for me - home. As I traipsed about DC, played in the water, and hiked my little heart out, I was reminded of why I love these people so much.
On this trip, I also got to pay tribute to a fallen friend. Arlington was flooded with so many people on the weekend of remembering, but I was thankful and honored to have the chance to go and sit at the marker of 1st LT. David Johnson. Nothing but pride bubbled in my heart. He really is a big deal.
I have stories and memories that will last a life time. I'm thankful that no matter what distance there may be, the strength of a relationship doesn't have to change. In fact, most of them have become even stronger.
I cannot even wait until the next time I get to see these amazing people.
So to all my friends, both here at home and far away, thank you for being who you are - absolutely wonderful. I love you guys.
Until my next ramble,
Em
I am blessed.
As I arrived in Baltimore on Thursday evening, my anticipation was mounting. As I walked out of my gate, the wonderfully familiar face of Laurisha Cotton greeted me. I wanted nothing more than to squeal with joy, but I figured the airport personnel may not like that too much. After a year, I finally got to hug the neck of one of my best friends.
The next day, I got to see a friend I've only spent the span of a week with. Steph is a dear friend I made while in Romania last year, and it is so wonderful to see how God has completely orchestrated every bit of our friendship. I loved being able to hang out with her in a place where everyone speaks English. :)
In the following days, I was reunited with many more of the people who made Evangel what it was for me - home. As I traipsed about DC, played in the water, and hiked my little heart out, I was reminded of why I love these people so much.
On this trip, I also got to pay tribute to a fallen friend. Arlington was flooded with so many people on the weekend of remembering, but I was thankful and honored to have the chance to go and sit at the marker of 1st LT. David Johnson. Nothing but pride bubbled in my heart. He really is a big deal.
I have stories and memories that will last a life time. I'm thankful that no matter what distance there may be, the strength of a relationship doesn't have to change. In fact, most of them have become even stronger.
I cannot even wait until the next time I get to see these amazing people.
So to all my friends, both here at home and far away, thank you for being who you are - absolutely wonderful. I love you guys.
Until my next ramble,
Em
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
One Year
One year.
This Friday marks one year since I graduated from college. Wow. Tomorrow I drive up (or over) to Springfield to watch the commencement ceremonies for the class of 2012. Most of the remainder of my close friends from college will take their turn walking across the stage. I'm already beaming with pride. (Yes, I am like a mother. It happens to the best of us!)
Many of these beloved friends have shared hopes, anxieties, dreams, questions, etc...pretty much any thought that passes through one's head before graduating. As they share the plans and purposes they feel called to, I can't help but think back over my life this past year.
Plans and dreams are wonderful, wonderful things. As has been the case in my life, God is taking me on a much different path to get to these dreams. Let me tell ya, I am so thankful that He is. I am gaining so much needed experience in ways that I never even dreamed of...never even thought of. But isn't that the beauty of God? His plan far surpasses any that we have for ourselves.
God is teaching me to be faithful in the small. When I graduated, I had a much different plan for myself...this plan certainly did not involve working at the District Office for the Kansas Assemblies of God. I was going to be off running around the world by this point. However, I am so thankful that God led me here. There is a whole lot that I didn't know, and I'm so glad God gives time of preparation and rest. I'm glad God is a God of growth. There has certainly been a lot of that since I left the confines of my beloved Evangel. Being where I'm at is beginning to open doors that are leading to my passions, my hopes, and my dreams for the future.
The winds of change are blowing, and I feel mounting anticipation. God is continually preparing my heart for the dreams He has given me...for the plans He has for my life. I'm also thankful that God is a God of confirmation. A few weeks back, our children's pastor shared something I will never forget...a message straight from the Lord. God told her to pass along to me that I am on the right track. GLORY! Oftentimes I find myself wondering, "God, am I doing what I'm supposed to be? Am I listening to you? Am I following your plan?" This was exactly the answer I've been searching for. She also told me that I need to be cautious of the thousands of voices in my head. As long as I keep my eyes fixed on Him, the perfect and unique plan He has for my life will be carried through to full fruition. (I took SOME liberty in the word choice there, but that is the jist.) I'm glad God uses other people to confirm answers to many (not all) of life's questions.
I'm also glad that God provides ministry partners. A dear, dear friend of mine received a vision back in October. This vision was a DIRECT confirmation of everything I have been feeling in my heart over the past couple of years. (Ask if you want the full story!) The funny thing about this confirmation is that I hadn't shared most of what she shared with me from this vision. But EVERYTHING she said, God had been stirring in my heart. It's nice to know that your dreams aren't crazy. :) It's nice to know God puts people on your path that can share in the journey with you...people that can share in your dreams.
I have no idea how God will work anything out, but I am so thankful for how He has worked out the past year. I'm no longer afraid to dream a God dream, but I am also a lot more willing to be patient as He works out every detail. It's nice to know that someone who knows much better than me is in control of my future.
A year ago, I was a little freaked out. Today, I am hopeful. I am eager. I am ready. I am waiting. Today, I am dreaming a God dream.
Until my next ramble,
Em
This Friday marks one year since I graduated from college. Wow. Tomorrow I drive up (or over) to Springfield to watch the commencement ceremonies for the class of 2012. Most of the remainder of my close friends from college will take their turn walking across the stage. I'm already beaming with pride. (Yes, I am like a mother. It happens to the best of us!)
Many of these beloved friends have shared hopes, anxieties, dreams, questions, etc...pretty much any thought that passes through one's head before graduating. As they share the plans and purposes they feel called to, I can't help but think back over my life this past year.
Plans and dreams are wonderful, wonderful things. As has been the case in my life, God is taking me on a much different path to get to these dreams. Let me tell ya, I am so thankful that He is. I am gaining so much needed experience in ways that I never even dreamed of...never even thought of. But isn't that the beauty of God? His plan far surpasses any that we have for ourselves.
God is teaching me to be faithful in the small. When I graduated, I had a much different plan for myself...this plan certainly did not involve working at the District Office for the Kansas Assemblies of God. I was going to be off running around the world by this point. However, I am so thankful that God led me here. There is a whole lot that I didn't know, and I'm so glad God gives time of preparation and rest. I'm glad God is a God of growth. There has certainly been a lot of that since I left the confines of my beloved Evangel. Being where I'm at is beginning to open doors that are leading to my passions, my hopes, and my dreams for the future.
The winds of change are blowing, and I feel mounting anticipation. God is continually preparing my heart for the dreams He has given me...for the plans He has for my life. I'm also thankful that God is a God of confirmation. A few weeks back, our children's pastor shared something I will never forget...a message straight from the Lord. God told her to pass along to me that I am on the right track. GLORY! Oftentimes I find myself wondering, "God, am I doing what I'm supposed to be? Am I listening to you? Am I following your plan?" This was exactly the answer I've been searching for. She also told me that I need to be cautious of the thousands of voices in my head. As long as I keep my eyes fixed on Him, the perfect and unique plan He has for my life will be carried through to full fruition. (I took SOME liberty in the word choice there, but that is the jist.) I'm glad God uses other people to confirm answers to many (not all) of life's questions.
I'm also glad that God provides ministry partners. A dear, dear friend of mine received a vision back in October. This vision was a DIRECT confirmation of everything I have been feeling in my heart over the past couple of years. (Ask if you want the full story!) The funny thing about this confirmation is that I hadn't shared most of what she shared with me from this vision. But EVERYTHING she said, God had been stirring in my heart. It's nice to know that your dreams aren't crazy. :) It's nice to know God puts people on your path that can share in the journey with you...people that can share in your dreams.
I have no idea how God will work anything out, but I am so thankful for how He has worked out the past year. I'm no longer afraid to dream a God dream, but I am also a lot more willing to be patient as He works out every detail. It's nice to know that someone who knows much better than me is in control of my future.
A year ago, I was a little freaked out. Today, I am hopeful. I am eager. I am ready. I am waiting. Today, I am dreaming a God dream.
Until my next ramble,
Em
Thursday, February 16, 2012
What I Don't Know
In the past few weeks I've learned something very valuable: there is a lot I don't know.
At this time last year, I was roughly 2 1/2 months away from graduating. While in Romania, God stirred my heart and began to give me additional dreams of traveling and doing ministry for women in the States and overseas. I was going to send out resumes...I was going to get plugged into one of these so called ministries. I was going to go.
But God had another plan, and boy am I glad He knows me better than I know myself.
God called me home. Lo and behold, a year later, I am heavily involved in Evangel's (my church is also the name of my college...not trying to confuse anyone!) youth ministry which I never even dreamed. God placed in my heart a desire to get involved this summer, and I have found a new love for teenagers that I never EVER thought I would have. I am helping take on some of the preaching responsibilities and getting to help lead the worship team as our youth pastors have been called on to lead a church in New Jersey. I am under some really incredible leadership. We have a great couple (who I also get to work with at the District office) leading this transition time and whether or not these two know it, they are facilitating a great place for me to learn.
I know without a shadow of a doubt that I am called into full-time, 100%, full blown ministry. I know that God has given me a lot of dreams and desires (especially to travel and speak), and I am really excited to see how that all pans out. I also know that there is a lot I don't know. God has placed me where I am for a reason, and I am so thankful for that. I am thankful for teachers and people willing to invest in my spiritual, emotional, and mental growth. I am thankful for learning. I am thankful that God kept me from diving head first into full-time ministry because I was/am not ready yet. I am thankful for experience and opportunity to show me how to become a better pastor and a better person.
There are a few things God has really instilled in me, and I want to share them with you all:
1) Don't ever stop being teachable. As a young, fresh out of college kid, it was very easy for me to think I had a handle on what God wanted out of me and where I was going to go. Boy did I (and I still do) have a lot to learn. In Proverbs it says "a wise man will hear and increase in learning, and a man of understanding will acquire wise counsel." I never want to get to the point where I think I have nothing left to learn. I will ALWAYS have something to learn, somewhere to improve. God has surrounded me with some amazing mentors and people who have been in ministry much longer than I certainly have. What an amazing opportunity to learn and grow.
2) Don't be so stuck that you miss out on a God opportunity. Many of you know that I swore off youth ministry at a very early age. Teenagers drove me nuts (and sometimes still do, but hey, I can't help but love 'em), and I wanted no part in their development. Well, thankfully God helped me get over myself and showed me what a great opportunity I had before me. I get to invest in a group of young people. I get to pour into their lives, and they in turn pour into mine. God is showing me His faithfulness and grace through these students' lives, and that is something I am so thankful for. They are teaching me every day, and I am thankful.
3) Trust in God's good and perfect will for your life. Where I am at right now was not in my plan, but I am so glad it was in God's. I am so glad that He knows exactly where I need to be, and I pray that I trust in that every day of my life...no matter where He tells me to go or how He tells me to move. I don't want to get caught up in my own agenda...I want to be caught up in His will. I know that God has given me some grand dreams and desires, and I believe He is working out those dreams in the way He sees best. I know His plan far exceeds my own. I know it's not about me...it's about Him.
I am being bombarded with knowledge. You know, college taught me a lot, but there is something about experience.
I don't know it all, and I am so thankful I don't. But I am excited to keep learning. In 10 years from now, I want to be able to look back at my life and say that I never quit being teachable. I never got stuck. I trusted in God's good and perfect will for my life.
I still believe I am in for the ride of my life. God is mapping out His perfect plan for me.
Thanks for letting me ramble! (Not like you really had a choice, but thanks for reading!)
Love you guys.
In Him,
Em
At this time last year, I was roughly 2 1/2 months away from graduating. While in Romania, God stirred my heart and began to give me additional dreams of traveling and doing ministry for women in the States and overseas. I was going to send out resumes...I was going to get plugged into one of these so called ministries. I was going to go.
But God had another plan, and boy am I glad He knows me better than I know myself.
God called me home. Lo and behold, a year later, I am heavily involved in Evangel's (my church is also the name of my college...not trying to confuse anyone!) youth ministry which I never even dreamed. God placed in my heart a desire to get involved this summer, and I have found a new love for teenagers that I never EVER thought I would have. I am helping take on some of the preaching responsibilities and getting to help lead the worship team as our youth pastors have been called on to lead a church in New Jersey. I am under some really incredible leadership. We have a great couple (who I also get to work with at the District office) leading this transition time and whether or not these two know it, they are facilitating a great place for me to learn.
I know without a shadow of a doubt that I am called into full-time, 100%, full blown ministry. I know that God has given me a lot of dreams and desires (especially to travel and speak), and I am really excited to see how that all pans out. I also know that there is a lot I don't know. God has placed me where I am for a reason, and I am so thankful for that. I am thankful for teachers and people willing to invest in my spiritual, emotional, and mental growth. I am thankful for learning. I am thankful that God kept me from diving head first into full-time ministry because I was/am not ready yet. I am thankful for experience and opportunity to show me how to become a better pastor and a better person.
There are a few things God has really instilled in me, and I want to share them with you all:
1) Don't ever stop being teachable. As a young, fresh out of college kid, it was very easy for me to think I had a handle on what God wanted out of me and where I was going to go. Boy did I (and I still do) have a lot to learn. In Proverbs it says "a wise man will hear and increase in learning, and a man of understanding will acquire wise counsel." I never want to get to the point where I think I have nothing left to learn. I will ALWAYS have something to learn, somewhere to improve. God has surrounded me with some amazing mentors and people who have been in ministry much longer than I certainly have. What an amazing opportunity to learn and grow.
2) Don't be so stuck that you miss out on a God opportunity. Many of you know that I swore off youth ministry at a very early age. Teenagers drove me nuts (and sometimes still do, but hey, I can't help but love 'em), and I wanted no part in their development. Well, thankfully God helped me get over myself and showed me what a great opportunity I had before me. I get to invest in a group of young people. I get to pour into their lives, and they in turn pour into mine. God is showing me His faithfulness and grace through these students' lives, and that is something I am so thankful for. They are teaching me every day, and I am thankful.
3) Trust in God's good and perfect will for your life. Where I am at right now was not in my plan, but I am so glad it was in God's. I am so glad that He knows exactly where I need to be, and I pray that I trust in that every day of my life...no matter where He tells me to go or how He tells me to move. I don't want to get caught up in my own agenda...I want to be caught up in His will. I know that God has given me some grand dreams and desires, and I believe He is working out those dreams in the way He sees best. I know His plan far exceeds my own. I know it's not about me...it's about Him.
I am being bombarded with knowledge. You know, college taught me a lot, but there is something about experience.
I don't know it all, and I am so thankful I don't. But I am excited to keep learning. In 10 years from now, I want to be able to look back at my life and say that I never quit being teachable. I never got stuck. I trusted in God's good and perfect will for my life.
I still believe I am in for the ride of my life. God is mapping out His perfect plan for me.
Thanks for letting me ramble! (Not like you really had a choice, but thanks for reading!)
Love you guys.
In Him,
Em
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